Heart Wrenching Melodies

You know what, when I was nineteen, my heart was broken. I broke up with my very first boyfriend and even though It’s kinda funny (coz the reason for the breakup is really so childish) when I think about it now, I still remember that that was the first time I really experience a heartache. It is something that opened my eyes to the reality of pain and that life is not about fairytales. I was quite young, very naive and yes really stupid so I was torn and don’t know what to do. I was disillusioned and call me mushy but I really had a hard time trying to get over my first bf. I actually thought I would never be able to do so – but hey today my head would not even turn if I hear his name.

A song from Joey Albert, I Remember the Boy but I don’t remember the feeling anymore is so true! Anyway, aside from friend and family’s love, you know what helped me get over that heartache - songs! Yes heart breaking love songs that used to make me cry buckets of tears. I think I cry until I fell asleep and it helped me heal fast. You can cry all you want but you would soon realize that you simply cannot cry forever. So for anyone who might be broken hearted today, remember that no matter how bad you may feel today, it is alright- because it is not possible for you to stay that way forever. Here are the some of the songs that prick straight to my heart then.

Doors

Noboy Knows It But Me

I Know Him So Well

If You Walk Away

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Have A Meaningful Holy Week

It’s the last day of work this week and some people who filed vacation leaves early are already enjoying their vacation. Well I am also leaving this office in an hour and hope to be able to enjoy the holy week break. My family plans to visit the province of my husband at La Union. Anyway, I just want to say that may we use this time to bond with our families. It is also a great opportunity to reflect on our lives and how much do we practice Christian ways. And even if fun and relaxation is what in most people’s minds now, hope we remember to pray and reflect on the real reason for this season.

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Happy To Serve Mother Earth

I have been aware of the Earth hour for several years now but my family never gets to participate in this event that aims to save energy because of various reasons. Sometimes we are not at home that time, we need to turn on the lights for an important errand that needs to be finished, or we simply forgot about it. But this year, my family participates in the Earth hour event for the first time.

My husband and I went to the church to attend the anticipated mass (6 -7 pm). Then when we got home, we immediately had dinner. Afterwards, I took care of other things so that we can turn off the light at 8:30pm without thinking of anything that still needs to be done. My mom and sister on the other hand made sure that Sophie is already sleeping.  At exactly 8:30pm we turned off all the lights in the house and we only use the beam of a small rechargeable battery (hope that’s alright) as we chatted and rest.

Most of our neighbors did not participate in this Earth hour, maybe because they are not aware of it or what it’s for. Even though there are more TV ads about Earth hour this year than the previous years, I think more campaigning is needed so more people can participate. Anyway, I am happy that even in a small way, in an hour that we barely even notice pass by, my family was able to do our share in making this world a better place.

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Me and My Big Tummy

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It’s been 6 months since I gave birth via c-section but somehow my tummy still swells. You know I gained a few pounds when I was pregnant and then gained a few more while I was on maternity leave. Now six months later, everybody is saying that I am fat.

I remember a few months after giving birth, I went to the mall alone and rode a taxi, and the driver remarked that I should be careful because I am pregnant. I tried hard to hide my embarrassment as I told him that I gave birth two months ago.

And then last week during my daughter’s baptism, I learned that some of the guests thought I am pregnant, even congratulating my husband because they thought we would have a child again. And then there’s this another time  when I took a liking at some of the blouses hanging in a Divisoria tiangge and the saleslady look at me and said that it would not fit me and then went to offer another blouse in bigger size.

Well, well, well I have never been figure conscious and for someone who is slim all her life, I welcome the extra pounds. But I know now how fat people feels and how it can be frustrating sometimes.

There are days when  I am bothered with my tummy and I wish it is not so large. My pre-pregnancy clothes are all too small for me now- or would fit but I look like a suman. Maybe I really need to start a diet or perhaps exercise so I can fit into my old jeans. But most of the time, I really don’t care. As long as my family is fine and my baby is healthy and happy - who cares about sexy clothes? 

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Perfect Remark From A Perfectionist

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I went to work today nervous. It is because I was not able to finish a task my boss gave me yesterday. It is a speech that he will deliver to a group of students the next day so I really need to finish it ASAP. It’s a good thing that I arrived early at work so I was able to polish my work a little more before emailing it to my boss. When my boss arrived, he immediately asked me if am through with the speech and I said that I have already sent an email.

My heart was pounding as I am half expecting that I will be reprimanded. I am actually waiting for my boss to approach me so I can make some revisions. But alas one hour had passed and still I hear nothing from my boss. You see all of us in the office know that my boss is a perfectionist, the one who always wants us to do our best. Even if the work is okay, he always look for ways on how we can further improve it.

So the comment I read from the email message he sent pertaining to my work was truly unexpected. My eyes grew wide and I smiled in relief and disbelief with this: Mela, Perfect! I like what you did!

Getting a perfect remark is difficult, but getting it from a perfectionist is even more!!! I laughed hard when an officemate who also read the email message actually congratulated me for it. I cannot believe that I just got a perfect remark from a perfectionist. No one is perfect but today I just feel like I am! It really made my day! 

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I love Erasehreads!

The office internet is extremely slow this morning so while waiting for some pages to load, I decided to make this blog entry. The Eraserheads thing came up because one of my officemates is a big fan and to my delight he is playing their songs in his pc.

Listening to their songs brings back lots of memories. Yeah I am an idealistic, very naïve and in a way very dumb (lol) high school student who is about to enter college when the first album of Eraserheads came out.    

It was such a cool thing then to have an Ultraelectromagnetic tape (yeah it was before the time of cds and dvds hehe). And it was also a time when a lot of great Pinoy bands like True Faith, Alamid, After Image, Yano, etc. who creates original and meaningful music (unlike now when most popular singers sing revival songs) became very popular.

The songs also brings me back to my days at UPLB- when I would hear frat men playing their guitar and singing Ehead songs while I was lying in my bed in th dorm. It feels like a lullaby then. I miss those times!

I love almost all of their songs and I will always look at Ely Buendia with fondness. It was sad when the band decided to part ways. In a way it is like a point in time that one can never return to- maybe visit once in a while or reminisce but then the reality that it is forever gone remains.

When I was a student teacher in UPIS back in 2003, I was really shocked when one of my students said that they didn’t know E-heads and consider their song oldies! Oh how time flies! I can’t believe those kids! Anyway I will always be an E-heads fan and here are a few of my favorite E-head songs:

With A Smile


Shake Your Head 



Wishing Wells

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Busy As A Bumblebee

In the midst of a seemingly ordinary Friday afternoon, it suddenly dawned on me --the reality that I am really so busy. My list of things to do is just piling up. I need to clean my work desk, need to get a haircut, need to study the materials my boss gave me, a couple of articles to finish, reports to do, things to research- plus stuff at home like doing the groceries, taking care of Sophie, etc.

Oh and I also need to update my blogs. I love working and know that having lots of things to do is a lot way better than having nothing to do. But of course I am no superwoman and there are days like these when I just feel so tired. Still I believe that I will be able to accomplish that everything that need to be done in time.
I just need to do it one at a time.

As the saying goes, tough situation don’t last but tough people do. But right now, my mind needs to shut down a little and rest. So in this Friday afternoon, I decided to give myself a little break and take it easy. Here is a list of things I do whenever I am feel laden with numerous tasks in the office:

Listening to music or radio on my pc or phone. Right now I am listening to Monster radio at 93.1 and the music relaxes me. The banter of the DJs makes me laugh.

Quick Chat: I say hello to some of my online friend via YM that I know is not so buy for a little chit chat. Of course, I limit our talks so it doesn’t get in the way of our work

Text Therapy. I send a text message to my husband, mostly forwarded quotes. It just takes my mind off my work for a while

Pic Therapy. I will look at the various pictures of my daughter on my phone. No matter how tired I am, she never fails to make me smile.

Coffee Fix.I am not so fond of coffee but drinking coffee whenever I feel laden with tasks instantly perks me up. It awakens my sluggish mind and I feel alert in no time

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